I'm losing it...

I'm seriously starting to lose my will to live.

Everything I do, I feel like I'm disappointing everyone in my life...

I feel like everyone in my family is extremely disappointed. No one wants me around anymore... Hell, even when the family meets up after not seeing eachother for months or even years at a time, I always go unnoticed... Last night, for instance; My brother came to town, so my cousins, who I hadn't seen for 6 or so months, met us at a restaurant for dinner. They said their greetings to EVERY SINGLE PERSON AT THE TALBE INCLUDING THE ONES THEY DID NOT KNOW... except me. They completely forgot about me... It wasn't even until 5 minutes later that they realized I was even THERE. And hell... I'm the fuucking tallest one there... Either I'm a HUUUUUUUUUGE disappointment with my entire family and extended family, or I'm invisible 50% of the time...

All of my friends either hate me or it seems like they're disappointed at me. All of my friends in real life all ignore me and treat me like I'm just dirt on their shoulder that they're brushing off... None of them even care to see my face ever again...

Even on the internet, I feel like everyone here and everywhere else I go hates me or couldn't care less if I were to disappear forever. Hell, I'm sure most of you would love it if I disappeared forever or were killed.

I feel like I'm never going to be anything more than just an object for people to use me up until I'm no longer any use to them anymore and then just toss me aside... x_x

Even on the internet, I feel like everyone here and everywhere else I go hates me or couldn't care less if I were to disappear forever. Hell, I'm sure most of you would love it if I disappeared forever or were killed.

What? No, that'd be horrible.

You have to stop being so negative towards yourself dude. Maybe find yourself a girlfriend? That'd cheer you up.

Your family needs the cold shoulder.

But if you're gone, that's one less person to talk to or help =( The world dies a little inside.

Maybe find yourself a girlfriend?

This, sort of. All you need is a person you can talk to and get things off your chest, basically a shoulder you can cry on even if it's just someone over the internet.

I've helped out a lot of people by just being there for them to vent on or whatever.

Just for the record, maybe if you stopped ruining a bunch of peoples parade on the internet, you wouldn't feel so bad about them 'treating you badly'.

If it helps you any, I've always thought you were pretty cool, especially after hearing about the amount of work you put into learning Japanese.

I've always thought you were cool man. Whenever I see your posts about what new stuff your version has gotten and where you;ve explored, I always check it. You need to stop being so self-hating.

I can kind of see how you feel, as there are many who can't see face for me - especially my father.

The most important thing is not having support, but knowing you can rely on somebody for it (sounds weird maybe?). Your true friends will never give up on you, because that's what true friends are. I think you're feeling a little down and are thinking pessimistically.

There is definitely somebody in your life who you can confide in... I'm sure even some members of this forum can help you. I don't know why anybody on this forum would hate you, you provide so much to everybody and are very kind. Heck, there's way more reason to hate me than yourself :p.

I hope you can feel better soon. Let out the tears if there are any, sleep and then rethink everything. I'm sure the situation is not as bad as you claim it is.

Dunno if it makes sense in Japanese but 加油!!

I though you were a cool guy, untill You replied with a mean comment to my comment on youtube.

Ehh even if people DO use you, at least your use will help the future human generations in some way or another. So just let other people use you.....








Unless of course you want the human race to die.