I need a way out

I know that I probably don't sound very cool or collected. I don't care.

I want to know how to run. How to get away from this place. I've as good as attempted suicide last year. I can't take it again. You'll probably say I'm selfish, or insane, or lying. I don't care. I need to get away from here. I can't take it. I don't care if I die, the way things are here is dying alive. I cannot do what I love. I am not allowed to think the way I want to. I cannot am not allowed to act the way I want to. Teachers catch every word and twist them to force me to talk in the way they want.

I spend every day living in pain, doing things I hate every waking moment. I remember counting the hours to the end of the day at one point, and shaking in fear at night, unable to sleep for fear of insufficiency. Everyone wants the opportunity to jump on me the second my guard's down, the second I fail at something, then I'll become the loser who everyone insults. That is the general attitude, if you drop to subpar or just not good enough for everyone's standards you become everyone's sh'it bag to step on whenever they feel like it. I need to get out. I want to die. I want to die.

Then man up and actually do it instead of talking about it on a forum for a children's game. Clearly, you think life is more important, because you're still alive. While you're here, you might as well stop talking about how horrible your life is and do something about it.


Edit: I obviously don't mean for the TS to kill himself. I mean for the OP to stop complaining and do something to improve his life. I left it vague because I don't know the TS personally, so I can't comment on specifics. Great job for misreading, people.

Then man up and actually do it instead of talking about it on a forum for a children's game. Clearly, you think life is more important, because you're still alive. While you're here, you might as well stop talking about how horrible your life is and do something about it.

You're a moron. Please, do everyone a favor and shut up, you clearly know absolutely nothing at all.

Haseo i'll respond more when I have some time, sorry i'm busy. I've slit my wrists twice though so I think I can offer some insight.

I've slit my wrists twice though so I think I can offer some insight.

How does self abuse make you any more entitled to discuss suicide? Are you implying that sane people have never had bouts of depression?

How does self abuse make you any more entitled to discuss suicide? Are you implying that sane people have never had bouts of depression?

I'm not implying but rather outright stating that those with actual experience have a more adequate understanding of the topic at hand. More than pissy individuals that are recommending someone commit suicide, that's for sure.

You're clearly missing the point, so I'll let you read and reread my post again:

do something about it.

I've had experience before. It's difficult to do. Actually trying will deter him the same way that trying deters most people. I think he's going to fail and fail over again. Besides, I'm not encouraging him to try to commit suicide anyways. I'm just stating my observation that most people do end up failing.

Get away from where you live and go to school? I assume that. Suicide is never the answer. I'm not sure about your relationship with your family and such, but start to love yourself and who you are. You should embrace who you are and what you enjoy. I'm not sure how you're forced to do things you hate every waking moment, but explain a bit more on that so we can figure it out. Love yourself and if others put you down, they're not worth your time really. You're you. No one else is you. You have your own ideas, values, style, etc. Love everything about yourself man. :/

Because this thread is in the Speakeasy and not the Angry Dome, I'd like to ask everyone why it's such a popular mentality to encourage people who clearly don't want life to cling onto it. After all, we're all going to die anyways, whether by getting old, by getting sick, or by making conscious decisions.

It annoys me that people are upset, just because my opinion is seemingly not in agreement with the "life above all" mentality. This absolutism is almost as ridiculous as religion nuts telling me that I'm going to hell.

Because this thread is in the Speakeasy and not the Angry Dome, I'd like to ask everyone why it's such a popular mentality to encourage people who clearly don't want life to cling onto it. After all, we're all going to die anyways, whether by getting old, by getting sick, or by making conscious decisions.

Because life is precious. I can only suppose one of two things about you. Either you've never really experienced death intimately, in which case i'm glad for you even though you are quite naive, or you've been desensitized to it, in which case I pity you quite a bit.

I'd like to ask everyone why it's such a popular mentality to encourage people who clearly don't want life to cling onto it

because encouraging suicide will get you in trouble with the law.

On an online forum? lol...

Because life is precious. I can only suppose one of two things about you. Either you've never really experienced death intimately, in which case i'm glad for you even though you are quite naive, or you've been desensitized to it, in which case I pity you quite a bit.

Half-and-half. I'm desensitized to it, but fortunately for me, not as a direct result of anyone close. Besides, this doesn't really have much to do with the TS, since committing suicide is a selfish endeavor. The TS won't be "losing anyone" if he commits suicide. His memories will simply end at that point, and he doesn't have to worry about any repercussions since he won't be around to witness them.

yes, in an online forum. your ip or email can be subpoenaed, your address can be easily found. a judge wont look kindly on someone who says "go try to kill yourself, i don't think you have the balls" and succeeds in goading another depressed soul into trying it.

suicide is srs bzniz. dont pineapple with it.

On an online forum? lol...



Half-and-half. I'm desensitized to it, but fortunately for me, not as a direct result of anyone close. Besides, this doesn't really have much to do with the TS, since committing suicide is a selfish endeavor. The TS won't be "losing anyone" if he commits suicide. His memories will simply end at that point, and he doesn't have to worry about any repercussions since he won't be around to witness them.

You talk like someone that hasn't ever been in his situation, like I used to think before I'd experienced it. While it's true that he won't have to deal with the repercussions of his own suicide, there's more to it than that, which isn't something I can really explain to you.

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All I have to say is that, there are countless people around the world rooting for you, who wish better for you. Suicide is just a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

From what I can tell it's obvious things aren't working out for you, and you feel like there's nothing you can do, but trust me when I say this, it gets better in the end. You may be missing out on so many great friends that you'll meet a long the way i'm sure of it sooner or later. It's hard to not let insults get to you, but use it to your advantage, work hard and and get revenge by taking control of your life, never to allow anyone to bring you down. Confide in yourself, and believe that you can and WILL succeed! No other person is greater than another!

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.


I, Southperrians, and countless people around the world are rooting for you! Don't give up and endure this! It will be worth it!!

Haseo, just come back and add/edit your OP when you calm down. Or just do whatever the hell you want, it's your life.

Go see a psychologist/councillor. No shame in seeing one and they're much more qualified than any of us to help you deal with the situation.

If you're actually serious I suggest you drop the poetics and give us some actual details, otherwise we can't do much.

You do have friends, right?

Plus, just wait a little bit. Take a deep breath before cutting yourself or whatever, and don't do it right this instant. Delay it for several hours.

You shouldn't be feeling emo/suicidal in several hours.

Really can't stand weak minded people. If you want to off yourself go ahead if your too weak to get up and keep going on your path then you only validate everything you fear people saying about you.