How was your day?

James was texting me early this morning and mentioned he "needs to have a chat" with me. He told me not to read into it, but he'd rather not text about it. Even when we talked on the phone and I tried to slyly nudge at it he wouldn't talk about it. This kind of pomegranate always gives me mad anxiety and nerves, like I'm just waiting for something bad to happen but I won't get an answer until tomorrow night.

We're not exclusive, I'm not his and he's not mine, but I'm slightly worried. Ugh.
:/

Study all day until 5
Finally get to go out with the dog to the park to play around, practice soccer and draw.
Have to take the long route because the primary school that I normally walk through has erected a fence all around it. Takes an extra 15minutes of walking
Finally arrive
Within 3minutes my ball has dog poop on it
Oh crap my hand has dog poop on it
Oh crap I dropped the ball and now the back of my sketchbook has dog poop on it
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Trudge home to have a shower, fix my book.

Karma for all the times I never cleaned up after my dog on walks when he was a puppy ;-;

Wasn't my dogs poop by the way (not sure if that would've made it any better anyway)

ok so apparently im having pizza with her tomorrow for iftar.. lets see if things are awkward.

I had to go for a medical assessment about my current benefits claim (i have mental health issues.. major anxiety n stuff)

was in the waiting room with dad and just felt so awful. Told him i felt scared and then i just cried. This lady asked me if i was ok but i couldn't speak because i was crying and having a panic attack :S and then i got called in with dad and he just had to answer all the questions because i was just hyperventilating n stuff..

if they think im ok to work im very confused about their system tbh.

getting my life through Connor; how the turntables

I'm just seeing this now bye.

so like I went to Toronto Pride this weekend with a boy and it was amazing I'm truly #blessed to live in such an accepting area.

but then I had to come back to work and I've been off since Friday so today was pretty grueling.

It sucked. Being stuck in a small room with no one to talk to really sucks esp when you have pretty much nothing to do

EGD/colonoscopy showed no polyps and very little inflammation, meaning my medicine is working and Crohn's is in remission

I got the job at Urban Outfitters and I, essentially, broke up with James. What a great night, my dos xx will help me out tonight though.

My girlfriend kind of obsessively wants to lick my eyeballs....


Yeah...



Related.

I woke up from a 3-hour-long nightmare at 5 AM. I only got 3 hours of sleep, and in 30 minutes, I have to be in a city 70 miles away. The drive takes 1.5 hours.

I was terrified for about 10 minutes when I woke up in the dark downstairs. My dog wasn't around and I had fallen asleep on the couch so I almost swore I wasn't dreaming.

I had two cups of coffee and an entire mason jar full of water to wake me up. The bright side is, I looked in the mirror and my hair was perfect. Maybe today won't be so bad.

Went to see gaga. Back hurts from standing up so long. Need to clean my room today because it's a Fucking mess...

I woke up from a 3-hour-long nightmare at 5 AM.

The way time flows in dreams makes the length you actually had the nightmare for hard to quantify.

Spent the whole day packing and getting ready to fly out to Vegas for 4th Of July weekend. Hawaii, let me know when you reverse the fireworks ban, then I might just stay around for New Years. >.> I'm happy they're actually willing to look over and reverse the decision.

just drove home from a night out gonna have the worst hangover driving slightly drunk was a bad idea but i made it back

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY

Went out with a friend and ate noodles instead of staying indoors and painting.

totallyworthit

So I met up with her for dinner. It was a good catchup session I guess... but im still unsure about our friendship lol. But ya we had pizza hut for iftar and it was delicious who knew pesto on pizza would taste amazing wtp.

Hoooly crap. Just found out that Welcome to Night Vale is doing a live show in my city. MUST BUY TICKETS NOWWWWW.

Just got back from a date. It went very well, and we're meeting up Sunday to either just hang out or go to a nearby theme park.


Aaaand now I'm going to a cookout. \o/

Still letting it sink in that my best friend fucked my crush... but its all good.

Apart from that, im still struggling with getting used to not having my morning coffee. #fighting

There's this guy that says he likes me...really want to go on a date with him but I don't know the appropriate time frame for that...