How was your day?

So... I've been in a pomegranate mood since Christmas. I miss my family, my two friends are making mistakes with boys that they have made before and I'm kind of unable to do anything about it.last day of classes was yesterday(China). Didn't have work today because the girl I teach cancelled today. Loafing around and studying for my finals. Not much I can do... 30,31,2 are the dates of my exams. I wanted to get really wasted for new year's eve but can't cuz I got my oral exam I need to prepare for. pomegranate that bugs me is that we didn't have midterms so I have like whole books to review and pomegranate... there's a lot of 成語....like I memorized 40 for one exam. I think have another 50~70 for the other exams. I'm moving on the 5th I have to go to grad ceremony of my friends on the 4th. I have to plan my trip to Beijing to see an old friend. I need to plan my trip to either 長沙 or 深圳 to see mine boyfriend but then again who knows if we'll still be together by then. I have to work tomorrow.... which takes a bite out of my study time but I guess I'll listen to recordings of my listening book to prepare... also my phone is almost ducked beyond repair. It's thinks it's constantly charging.... so when it gets to 14%where it notifies me that the battery is low,it thinks I'm charging it so it notifies me every second until it shuts down....

Picked the boy up from his coffee shop job and took the bus out to the beach. Took a trip down memory lane and shared tales of my nerdular nerdence days in high school. Threw myself into the freezing cold Pacific Ocean like a madwoman. Made sure to wear my super cheeky yoga bottoms that show off my best asset. Playing in the icy cold waves was incredibly liberating, and fun, and terrifying. The undertow was every bit as strong as I remember it. He followed me into the water despite his fear of the ocean. I'm trying not to read too much into that.

After I got out of the water, I shivered and shook for about an hour - I'm pretty sure I gave myself a mild case of hypothermia. We went back to his job for hot chocolate (for me) and coffee (for him) and I stopped shivering and everything was better. His co-workers tried their best to hide their curiosity. Then lunch at a burger joint and more conversation. He is really good company.

We each went home to wash off the saltwater and sand from the beach, then I went over to his place to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I can't believe I've never seen it before, I absolutely loved it. And it felt very relevant. His cats were very curious and kept walking up to me and staring during the movie. I gave him this book for Christmas and after the movie, I read it to him on his couch, like a schoolteacher. He'd never read the book and said he'd love to read it to his kids one day. Trying not to read too much into that, either.

I wasn't ready for the day to end so I asked him to walk me home, then it was his turn to get all nostalgic and tell me about his high school years. Even though we met while we were both in high school, we didn't go to the same school and I realized his high school years were very different than I'd always thought they were. We decided we were hungry (again, not wanting the night to end yet) and stopped into a diner to have a very late dinner. And more conversation and flirting.

After dinner he walked me home. I still didn't want him to leave, so I invited him to walk with me while I took the dog to the park. And more conversation. When we got back to my apartment it was probably close to midnight and I realized he'd been up since 3am for work and suddenly felt inconsiderate and selfish and apologized profusely. He said it was worth it.

God I wanted to kiss him so bad. But instead we hugged and then he went home.

When we were at the beach I told him I wasn't ready for any of this to mean anything. That I liked spending time with him and having fun. That I wanted to just have fun for a while. And he's okay with that. He said he understands that I'm going through some shit right now and things are still messy. That he's here for me if I need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on. As a friend. That he's not trying to push me into anything that I'm not ready for. That he's into me but knows I'm not ready for that kind of a relationship yet. That I'm worth the wait.

I said that I just want to have fun but I feel myself falling hard. And it terrifies me. I want more. But my heart is still broken and pieces are still missing. But yesterday was the best day I've had in months and god I just want more.

FEELS, WHY?

But my heart is still broken and pieces are still missing.

FEELS, WHY?

I'm inclined to think he may be able to loan you or outright gift you said missing pieces. You don't have to do everything by yourself.

Thought a large piece of torn plastic packaging left in my bed was a huge spider and almost woke up my entire family with my reaction. Also discovered how I sound when I'm scared;

"AAaaaiai wblblblblb"

- Told off all the new part timers for switching shifts so much.
- Fandoms on twitter being disrespectful as pineapple
- My brother being inconsiderate as hell.

Today made me really pissy. Im so done with everybody.
And uggghhhh app prototyping sucks big tiiiiimmmeeee... i thought i was gonna be done with al this wireframing and prototyping pomegranate but nope, here I am redoing all of the pages on my app. jfc someone hold me im going to die.

EDIT: Aaaaanndddd my day just got worse. I got an email from my school informing me to re-setup my email because the school upgraded to Office 365 and we cant use the windows live client anymore.... and i freaking forgot my password.. great... and i cant change it through our school's ID management system because its seperate from the microsoft account uggggghhhhhhhhhh pineapple

I spotted [MENTION=4132]Dual[/MENTION]; in the car in front of me last night on the way home from the mall. Small world.

I spotted [MENTION=4132]Dual[/MENTION]; in the car in front of me last night on the way home from the mall. Small world.

...how

I bought 5 Assassin's Creed games and Injustice last night. The stack continues to grow.

...how

How what? He has very distinct hair.

We changed the carpeting around the house and we finished our winter cleaning in time for New Years.

So I finally convinced my friend to reinstall Maplestory and the game constantly crashes on him. He can play Diablo III with no problems but somehow Maplestory is the game that his pc can't handle... O_o

I am enjoying my 5 day weekend. I love personal time.

Having coffee at night does terrible, terrible things to me.

Switched shifts around to help coworkers who are attending a rehearsal dinner. Weddings are srs bsns.

Now I have the next two days off. *sleeps*

Day off, got korean bbq and watched movies with friends. Debating on if I should try to switch my shifts around and work tuesday rather than wednesday. My friends want to get turnt, but dat time and a half pay.

How what? He has very distinct hair.

Well, I don't know that :v

Last Disneyland trip of the year! Had a blast even with the billion people here.

I went to the wedding of my dad's friend's son, and now my mom is freaking out about my wedding. I'm not getting married for a really long time, if at all, meanwhile my mom's on about "omg who's going to do reservations and who's going to call everyone and omg who's going to schedule everything you have no siblings"

Is this what a child becoming an adult is to parents?

Day off, got korean bbq and watched movies with friends. Debating on if I should try to switch my shifts around and work tuesday rather than wednesday. My friends want to get turnt, but dat time and a half pay.

wow Canada is weird. I get time and a half on New Year's Day, not New Year's Eve (also why I switched).

goddam

Small world.

Only a hair's breadth apart.

For the first time in a decade, I have actually feared for my life when my neighbor pulled a gun on his wife but apparently just shot the ceiling as a warning. Thank everything no one got hurt. *sigh* Glad to be moving again next year...

Went to a steak house for my Birthday. Opened the menu and cried at the prices.

(Who the hell would pay $140 for a 6 oz. steak?)