How was your day?

So my ex ended up in some fiasco and she ended up getting bagged on and bullied till the point where she started to break down. Despite me not being on speaking terms with her,
...I still defended her.
I don't care anymore. Once my friend, always my friend in some form of way. I'm not in it for anyone or anything anymore. I'm fed up with my emotions running around my mind like a total pomegranate-storm.

I'm not sure why you post things anymore. Almost every other post is a melodramatic speech about the most mundane things, along with ex girlfriend issues where you have made her come across as an emotionally unstable psychopath.

Did a no-death run of I Wanna Be The Boshy on "You're Gonna Get Raped" mode. Thought I was recording it.

Camtasia thought otherwise.

Just a little bit tired of Disneyland for a while haha after twice in less than a week. Though we did discover a new place in California Adventures to watch the World of Color show, and some awesome lobster nachos!

ACCEPTED now I wait for my student ID/registering for housing/registering for classes.
pineapple yeah

What a long week! Hiked up the side of a mountain, went to the city twice, went to my first concert (Marina!), and worked (well, trained) at my first job. All whilst my dad was visiting (he left this morning).


Ah life.

My dad is getting better from his heart issues! He also turned 60 a few days ago and the doctor says hes becoming very healthy.

This whole week has been unproductive as usual, drawing stuff, fooling around and whatnot.

I just realized I might have feelings for someone. And that someone might have feelings for me. I'm scared.
Hopefully I can cool off tomorrow when I go visit a museum for free.

Horrible.
I had Hay Fever ALL DAY.

Editing my own version.

Aced my Bio, Chem, and OChem test with an A+! Bothered I missed 3 questions out of 100 (pineapple you molecular genetics) but it's over!

Came home and slept until 5 PM. Edited a few videos. Now here I am on the Internet.

It was alright.
I got an invitation to an online assessment for this company I applied to this week.
I also went to fat city (Pizza Hut). I KNOW. I SHOULDN'T BE. But I was craving pizza for the longest time.
At least I walked there and back?

Today I have made a big decision.

I've realized that I have not changed at all since high school. I'm 20 years old and I'm still the socially awkward teen with no sense of style and nothing interesting about me. I've always had average grades, I've never tried to see if I have any talents, I never did sports, I never did drama, or dancing or anything like that. When people ask me what my hobbies are I say "I like playing videogames and reading".. and those just suck.

I think i've damaged myself over the years with the lack of social interaction, and I haven't given myself any chance to better myself, I've just locked myself away in my room and been a bore. My fashion style is amazingly bad. I wear plain and baggy jeans and a T-shirt all the time, and I do nothing with my hair. I live in a city now, and the guys I see make my head turn, and I feel insignificant.

So starting tomorrow, I'm going to change. I'm going to get an expensive haircut (well, relatively expensive compared to what I usually get), I'm going to book an appointment with a stylist, because I'm a not-straight guy with a terrible fashion sense (which is simply criminal) and i'm going to find some hobbies. I'm going to better myself before it's too late. I need to use this time to figure things out because I've got my whole life ahead of me and I'm sick of squandering it.

Waiting on the OK from my girlfriends parents so I can visit her this Christmas, super excited and stoaked for it.
I also confused a carnival with a flea market today. I even went up to the CARNIVAL sign guy and asked if this was the fleamarket. Yep, I need more sleep.

My dad is getting better from his heart issues! He also turned 60 a few days ago and the doctor says hes becoming very healthy.

A hearty meal is in order, then.

Today I have made a big decision.

I've realized that I have not changed at all since high school.

Congratulations, it takes a big man to acknowledge that and try to change

I'm a not-straight guy with a terrible fashion sense

[MENTION=1697]FrozNlite[/MENTION]'s fashion senses are tingling right about now.

So since I got accepted into VIU, I was able to drop the summer ceramics class I had intended to take at the local community college here (since VIU doesn't require tons of fine art bullpomegranate classes, it's completely unnecessary).

I'll be heading down to the office on Monday to get my refund, and I've used said money to book a flight to see the boyfriend before he comes here.
So I'll be in Victoria for a month and a half 8) yay

Work is work. Half the team has announced they're leaving... even though most of them likely aren't even moving to another job, just away from the toxic environment. The PIC has turned the work place into a rumor mill and has built an inside circle with the older members in the group leading to inside/outside friction inside the pharmacy; adding more tension within the pharmacy itself with the team pointing fingers at each other when something goes wrong in addition to the customers who are pointing fingers at us. Never ending complaints from outside the pharmacy which are tolerable, but the pharmacist and techs inside are quibbling 24/7 about the fact that the last person didn't finish strong and left them with an entire stack of chores to finish up the following day. Constant calls from management asking on why our queue is high to the pharmacist, therefore leading to higher build up of said queue while pharmacist handles said call.

I start the YouTube Creator Academy soon.

I'm nervous, my YouTube videos aren't even good and I don't have an intro :/

Buying tickets to go see Wicked in September, it's touring for the first time in the UK and here is the first stop! really excited!

I was literally thinking about how awesome It would be to go to New York to watch it, when I walked past the sign outside of the theatre and was like "WAT"

I've lost my appetite. My enthusiasm. I don't think I've really been happy in two weeks.

Things with her hit rock bottom today. Although I think now I've learned from all the mistakes I've made and have started to improve a little. I can tell there's still a chance. I just can't make any more mistakes.

I normally hate when people post depressing crap but I guess now I understand. I feel so horrible I've stopped caring about pretty much everything, including what people think of me.

I've tried doing things to distract me. I was up from 7-3 outside in this goddam heat, then I went to a neighbors party. I had my first full (mixed?) alcoholic drink. I don't even care about my health anymore and I hate feeling like this. The distractions barely did anything.

Just a few more days and I think I'll know for sure whether I should give up with her.
I had so many plans for this summer.. I was so happy and I had the motivation to do anything. Now it's impossible to go a full day without crying like a baby.

Sorry for being such a downer, southperry. I just needed to write down how I feel. I tried a diary but that didn't really help