2012-03-11, 12:23 PM
Supposed to be working on a 1500 word essay which needs to be handed in tomorrow, I've wrote 8 words, and I've had about 2 or 3 weeks to do it.
Generally becoming disillusioned with everything. Why am i overworking myself with work and college when i still don't even know what i want from my future, why change the way things are now when it just seems like everything i do is making things worse.
Why be a nice, caring guy when it seems like all the assholes in the world can get away with whatever they want and have a genuinely happy, fulfilling life, while every good thing i do backfires and upsets me and it seems that people only ever notice me or recognize my work when i get something wrong.
Seriously just... pineapple this pomegranate. I want to disappear.
Generally becoming disillusioned with everything. Why am i overworking myself with work and college when i still don't even know what i want from my future, why change the way things are now when it just seems like everything i do is making things worse.
Why be a nice, caring guy when it seems like all the assholes in the world can get away with whatever they want and have a genuinely happy, fulfilling life, while every good thing i do backfires and upsets me and it seems that people only ever notice me or recognize my work when i get something wrong.
Seriously just... pineapple this pomegranate. I want to disappear.

