2012-03-08, 01:12 AM
Am able to quantify a little nagging feeling I've had since I started wandering around for interviews and Winter/Spring break travel.
Nowhere feels like home right now.
The house of my parents still feels nostalgic, but it keeps becoming a little more foreign. My dad keeps accumulating furnishings and knickknacks from various family members who are also moving around right now. It's the house I grew up in but it isn't my home any more. Last year, my dorm felt like home. It was my own space and I was happy to be there. This year, it feels more like a base of operations. I sleep there. I entertain myself there. Having a roommate again has kinda destroyed the sanctity of what was my space. Being in the same room as last year doesn't help either. It feels like someone else has let a stranger access my base and stuck a bed in there for him to sleep on. I wonder when and where I'll be when it feels like I'm home again.
I'm still pretty lonely.
Nowhere feels like home right now.
The house of my parents still feels nostalgic, but it keeps becoming a little more foreign. My dad keeps accumulating furnishings and knickknacks from various family members who are also moving around right now. It's the house I grew up in but it isn't my home any more. Last year, my dorm felt like home. It was my own space and I was happy to be there. This year, it feels more like a base of operations. I sleep there. I entertain myself there. Having a roommate again has kinda destroyed the sanctity of what was my space. Being in the same room as last year doesn't help either. It feels like someone else has let a stranger access my base and stuck a bed in there for him to sleep on. I wonder when and where I'll be when it feels like I'm home again.
I'm still pretty lonely.