How was your day?

Please eat and take care of yourself. I'm so extremely sorry for both you and Sarah.

Try not to make the drinking problem a habit - it will only consume you.

It's not that I don't want to eat. I just can't. I ate on Thursday and threw it up within ten minutes. I attempted to eat a burrito last night and threw it all up midway through eating it. I'm not one for addictions these days. I can and do quit doing things on a dime. It's just a lot more bearable coming home to being alone and having a healthy buzz going so I don't just crawl under my bedsheets and cry myself to sleep night after night.

I'm deeply sorry for you both, Sarah and ImagineAll. I hope you can stay strong and move on. Remember there are people here you can always talk to. When I had my breakdown I felt really blessed to have received so much support from fellow SPers.

Today was spent zoning my mind out because I'm not mentally prepared for tomorrow.

I've always appreciated SP for it's tight knit group of people. Transparency isn't exactly my biggest thing in real life, and I tend to just bottle it up where no one knows anything is wrong with me until I'm just brokendown. So it always helps to come here and let things out a bit and know I'm not being judged I guess.

I don't know what this is right now, and I certainly don't know how to react. She just wants her space and given that we're both in college wants to not be binded to a relationship though she swears she still wants to be with me, just right now she wants to do her own thing. She said she wants to get back together after summer, and I'm just like, "pineapple that."