Who would you save?

You were incapacitated, So you could not have know what happened in the time you were K.O.

Raising this posibility your husband could have choosen to save your life instead of the child and not tell you that he had to make that decision in the first place. That way the only one with guilt would be your husband and your mental scarring would be less because its not the same damage you get if you could have saved the children than the damage from not having any possibility of saving the child.

Im rambling i know English its kinda hard sometimes >.<.

If you're going to lie, you should be expecting the truth to come out eventually. When it does, it's going to be oh so ugly.