2010-06-16, 10:01 PM
For the last four weeks I've been feeling this, and I'm not really sure if it's a good thing. I've never taken any drugs, and I haven't been particularly stressed. It just seems to have happened randomly when I woke up and hasn't gone away. Everything just feels strange and foreign, even my own hands or if I look at my face in the mirror. It's not that I'm hallucinating; I can see that it is definitely me, but it feels like I'm in some kind of cloudy dream where everything is a slightly strange version of what I know it to be.
I can't seem to care about the things that I know I need to care about. The normal everyday responsibilities that I've always had feel unneeded. I haven't shaved in four weeks, and I don't even get dressed when I go outside to get the mail or when I take Bruno for his walks. Normally I care about looking presentable, but now I seem perfectly fine with gym shorts, a thin white t-shirt, and messy hair every day of the week. Even as I'm doing it, I can realize that this is something I normally would never do, but I can't seem to care enough to force myself to do otherwise.
There are also some strange physical things that I'm feeling. Everything tastes so much better, all of the little flavors and textures that I would normally unconsciously dismiss, I'm now fully aware of as I eat it. Even touching things feels amazing. I spent an hour in the shower yesterday, because I couldn't get enough of the feeling of the warm water touching my back.
Is this something that I should be worried about?
I can't seem to care about the things that I know I need to care about. The normal everyday responsibilities that I've always had feel unneeded. I haven't shaved in four weeks, and I don't even get dressed when I go outside to get the mail or when I take Bruno for his walks. Normally I care about looking presentable, but now I seem perfectly fine with gym shorts, a thin white t-shirt, and messy hair every day of the week. Even as I'm doing it, I can realize that this is something I normally would never do, but I can't seem to care enough to force myself to do otherwise.
There are also some strange physical things that I'm feeling. Everything tastes so much better, all of the little flavors and textures that I would normally unconsciously dismiss, I'm now fully aware of as I eat it. Even touching things feels amazing. I spent an hour in the shower yesterday, because I couldn't get enough of the feeling of the warm water touching my back.
Is this something that I should be worried about?