17. 18 in June.
I guess I've always wanted to have sex, but I don't want a relationship. Girls are not the same once you date them, it seems. I have tons of girls as friends, and generally at school I prefer to hang out with them, (though it sure does make me feel guilty if they show a bit of cleavage or something). I'm sure that had I dated any of the girls I had feelings for then things would have been much different.
That, and I just don't know the cues. Never been in a real relationship, or anything, and by this point I feel that it is just embarrassing. I guess another thing that has hindered me losing my virginity is the fear of looking like a virgin my first time. I've always felt that my first time would actually be embarrassing because it would be so obvious that it was my first.
And I guess another thing that held me back is the fact that I am just not confident. Even though I know I look like my brother, who is a ladies man, I just don't feel adequate. I most often times think that I am too small, which arguably I am. I am 110 pounds and 5'7". I sit at home playing video games all day, and have pretty much destroyed any positive relationship I've had. This transfers over to me being more insecure about ever having sex because I feel like I'll let the person down, emotionally wise.
I guess I've always wanted to have sex, but I don't want a relationship. Girls are not the same once you date them, it seems. I have tons of girls as friends, and generally at school I prefer to hang out with them, (though it sure does make me feel guilty if they show a bit of cleavage or something). I'm sure that had I dated any of the girls I had feelings for then things would have been much different.
That, and I just don't know the cues. Never been in a real relationship, or anything, and by this point I feel that it is just embarrassing. I guess another thing that has hindered me losing my virginity is the fear of looking like a virgin my first time. I've always felt that my first time would actually be embarrassing because it would be so obvious that it was my first.
And I guess another thing that held me back is the fact that I am just not confident. Even though I know I look like my brother, who is a ladies man, I just don't feel adequate. I most often times think that I am too small, which arguably I am. I am 110 pounds and 5'7". I sit at home playing video games all day, and have pretty much destroyed any positive relationship I've had. This transfers over to me being more insecure about ever having sex because I feel like I'll let the person down, emotionally wise.