2010-03-30, 03:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 2010-03-30, 03:47 AM by Doctor Omega.)
Because I have seen many of you intelligent Southperrican's out there, I thought I'd make this topic here because quite honestly, it was the only place that made sense. I didn't really figure the Angry Dome was the right place because I'm not ranting, I'm simply posing a problem I have in hopes that one of you guys that have overcome this could lend a hand. This could even be a general thread to intelligently discuss different types of issues relating to this problem. Either way, a mod can make the call as to whether or not I placed this topic in the right place. Anyway, moving on.
You see, this is my problem.
First of all, if you read the time stamp of this topic, it'll further reinforce what I'm speaking about. For one, I'm sick of staying up this late. I am at my wit's end with myself, simply put. I stay up late, telling myself that I'll study and I don't. I've been blessed with the uncanny gift of making A's and B's without doing all the work that's required. And that's not to degrade the university I'm at either. I do all my assignments and take all the tests. But what bothers me the most is how well I could have done on a test if I had put forth the effort. Point in case, I have a test on Thursday that I really need to make good on, and I've done one section of the homework and studied a little. I tell myself I'll study, and I have the hardest time sitting down in front of the book. I guess you could say this is pretty normal for a lot of students, but for me, it's a character flaw that really bothers me and I haven't the foggiest clue where to start as to working toward a fix.
Second of all is just the staying up late part by itself. I stay up playing Paper Mario 2, Just Cause 2, chatting on IRC, and doing other random, pointless things when in all reality, I should be going to bed before 11pm. And as many of my fellow IRCers know, I'm happily engaged to be married in just a little over a year. Which brings me to the biggest concern of my night-owl tendencies. Once I get done with school in a month, I plan on looking for a job to support me and my better half, and hopefully a child somewhere in the near future. And if I plan on holding a real job, this 2am shit has got to stop at some point. The typical work day doesn't start at 12pm-2pm, it starts at the asscrack of dawn, which is the way it should be. And you see, I attribute a lot of this to not having a job right now while I finish my graduate program, and being fool enough to put all my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. While that may leave Bec and I tons of time to see each other, when she's not around, I basically have two days a week where I do shit that matters, which is class. Staying up late isn't a bad thing, per se, but when you constantly bed down at 2am-3am every night and wake up at 1:30pm on the days you don't have class, therein lies a problem; a rather large problem at that. Who the hell wants to sleep until 1:30pm? In a mere six hours, the sun already starts to set, and then you realize that half of your day is already gone. I guess one could say that I'm just ready to man-up a little more. I mean, I've got a fantastic work ethic, good grades (why not fantastic grades? @_@), and a great life. I'm a 26 year old man who still has some maturing to do, as do we all. But, I guess the problem lies in the fact that I have so much free time on my hands, and I simply can't stand it. I think about this crap every night when I lay down to bed and feel like I haven't accompllished anything throughout the day, and that my friends, is a disgusting feeling. When I lay down and think about the day, which most of the time starts at around 12 noon, and all I've done is either play video games or watch movies, I feel like a totally unworthy human being as far as being able to take care of someone goes. Sure things will change drastically when I get a job, because I'll be working 8 hours a day, hopefully.
And on top of everything else, I'm not the most physically fit person ever, either. I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I could afford to drop twenty pounds or so. The vicious cycle of procrastination and laziness repeat itself. I can't even stick to a decent workout routine anymore. I do workout decently, but sometimes I Just skip it because I don't feel like doing it. <_>
The only difference tonight is, I actually felt like sitting down and pouring out a little of myself here in this topic, because I know I have a lot of friends here who might be facing some of the same obstacles as me, and quite honestly, I'm ready for some fucking change. This isn't really a cry for help or anything, it's just more like a "What would you do in this situation?" Times are changing for me, and I need to kick it into high gear so I don't get left behind.
You see, this is my problem.
First of all, if you read the time stamp of this topic, it'll further reinforce what I'm speaking about. For one, I'm sick of staying up this late. I am at my wit's end with myself, simply put. I stay up late, telling myself that I'll study and I don't. I've been blessed with the uncanny gift of making A's and B's without doing all the work that's required. And that's not to degrade the university I'm at either. I do all my assignments and take all the tests. But what bothers me the most is how well I could have done on a test if I had put forth the effort. Point in case, I have a test on Thursday that I really need to make good on, and I've done one section of the homework and studied a little. I tell myself I'll study, and I have the hardest time sitting down in front of the book. I guess you could say this is pretty normal for a lot of students, but for me, it's a character flaw that really bothers me and I haven't the foggiest clue where to start as to working toward a fix.
Second of all is just the staying up late part by itself. I stay up playing Paper Mario 2, Just Cause 2, chatting on IRC, and doing other random, pointless things when in all reality, I should be going to bed before 11pm. And as many of my fellow IRCers know, I'm happily engaged to be married in just a little over a year. Which brings me to the biggest concern of my night-owl tendencies. Once I get done with school in a month, I plan on looking for a job to support me and my better half, and hopefully a child somewhere in the near future. And if I plan on holding a real job, this 2am shit has got to stop at some point. The typical work day doesn't start at 12pm-2pm, it starts at the asscrack of dawn, which is the way it should be. And you see, I attribute a lot of this to not having a job right now while I finish my graduate program, and being fool enough to put all my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. While that may leave Bec and I tons of time to see each other, when she's not around, I basically have two days a week where I do shit that matters, which is class. Staying up late isn't a bad thing, per se, but when you constantly bed down at 2am-3am every night and wake up at 1:30pm on the days you don't have class, therein lies a problem; a rather large problem at that. Who the hell wants to sleep until 1:30pm? In a mere six hours, the sun already starts to set, and then you realize that half of your day is already gone. I guess one could say that I'm just ready to man-up a little more. I mean, I've got a fantastic work ethic, good grades (why not fantastic grades? @_@), and a great life. I'm a 26 year old man who still has some maturing to do, as do we all. But, I guess the problem lies in the fact that I have so much free time on my hands, and I simply can't stand it. I think about this crap every night when I lay down to bed and feel like I haven't accompllished anything throughout the day, and that my friends, is a disgusting feeling. When I lay down and think about the day, which most of the time starts at around 12 noon, and all I've done is either play video games or watch movies, I feel like a totally unworthy human being as far as being able to take care of someone goes. Sure things will change drastically when I get a job, because I'll be working 8 hours a day, hopefully.
And on top of everything else, I'm not the most physically fit person ever, either. I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I could afford to drop twenty pounds or so. The vicious cycle of procrastination and laziness repeat itself. I can't even stick to a decent workout routine anymore. I do workout decently, but sometimes I Just skip it because I don't feel like doing it. <_>
The only difference tonight is, I actually felt like sitting down and pouring out a little of myself here in this topic, because I know I have a lot of friends here who might be facing some of the same obstacles as me, and quite honestly, I'm ready for some fucking change. This isn't really a cry for help or anything, it's just more like a "What would you do in this situation?" Times are changing for me, and I need to kick it into high gear so I don't get left behind.