Girls

How should I act I just want to be neer a girl and don't girls like to snuggle? o.O
And what could it manifest into?

Act normal? I mean... I can't really coach you on how to act but no one wants to be touched all of the time, nor do they want to feel smothered.

As for it manifesting, it has already started. I mean look, you were considering committing suicide. Maybe that's partly situational but those sorts of feelings don't just come from not having any friends, and this thread backs that up. When we, as people, don't get what we want after a long period of time we will start resenting those who don't provide for us. This is dangerous for both you and those around you. I don't really want to elaborate on that because it doesn't need to be brought up but suffice to say this is something you should deal with in a healthy manner. Find someone who can help you deal with your unnatural obsession. Not someone on the internet. I mean like a therapist.

edit: Oh, Cynic took it to the place I was avoiding. Yes, an obsession like this can cause you to do terrible things.