Homosexuality

I know too many people who, when they discovered they are attracted to the same gender (or to a specific person of the same gender), did not even know there was a word for it. They were sure they were simply insane. Thought they were the only one in the world like that. Several wanted to kill themselves for being so twisted. They tried to change themselves, and failed.
Now, it's possible that they had in fact heard of same-gender sexual relations somewhere, and their subconscious wish to be different picked up on that, and "chose" homosexuality without the knowledge or consent of the conscious mind. But I think that's stretching the meaning of "choice" a little too far.

This is like my life story from age 6-18. Finally, two years ago, I came to terms with my sexuality. I'm done trying to change myself. I prayed. I did everything I could think of to make myself straight. Yet, I'm still homosexual.

I am not one of those flamboyant gays. I'm just a normal guy. No one knows I am gay, unless I tell them. No I'm not out, but why should I be? Makes no difference to me whether others know my sexuality or not. The only people who should know or care are the people I want to be with.

I really get sad/mad when I see the flamboyant gays running around in dresses and talking like women. That is what everyone sees. Because of that, everyone thinks that's how all gay men are. I am here to tell you that I am sure maybe it is 50/50. It's just no one knows that the regular gay guys are gay.

I don't understand homophobia at all. None of my straight friends are scared of me, but if i told them I was gay, I am sure they would be. Homophobia is ok around the flamboyant gays. Hell! I can't even stand to be around them. There is a difference between (as I call them) "Flamos" and gay guys.