Poetry's drawings and stuff

hsc results came out

• 90 economics (i did it accelerated, last year)
  91 extension 2 maths
  97 extension 1 maths
  94 physics
  92 english advanced
  ...
  82 business studies (it wont count towards my ATAR)

estimated ATAR 99.40~

I could've gotten a medicine interview with these marks but I applied too late HAHA. My heart wasn't fully in it anyway, who gets medicine degree as a "backup" for freelance illustration?

Optometry school here I come!

I realized I'm never going to make it as a professional artist.
I realized I'll always wonder what-if if I don't see if I can make it as a doctor.
I grew up during my Optometry degree, that cushy job with low stress and free time and no one dying on me or being sick. Thats not what I want anymore.
The patient I remember the most was a guy who came in just for glasses, he was happy and on the routine check I picked up a retinal tear and sent him off for surgery so he wouldnt lose sight.

He came back the next day thanking me for saving his vision. Not for the glasses I prescribed, but for the difference I made in his life. I've never felt happier and I realize more and more that its the medical side of it that has the greatest draw to me. Every optometrist has a highlight reel of things they spot during their career or people they treat, but if you work corporate thats just grains of gold in a sea of sand. What if I want to make a real difference for patients every day? What if I just want to try? The moments of my life I'm most proud of have been the times where I didn't let things just happen to me. I didn't let the UMAT discourage me from optometry, I didn't let those two pricks shi't on my art and breaking me. But I've just been surviving my degree and if I don't do anything I'll just be surviving the rest of my life in regret.

I'm applying to med school. I'll always be drawing. I'll always have this but if I don't start giving a shi't I'll always have regret as well. I don't care if it takes one or two or three or five years to get in. I'll make it.