Poetry's drawings and stuff

haha ecksdee not ded yet



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Jesus I forgot about the last post I made.

I passed my exams so far and I don't feel that same despair about my degree.
I haven't been doing much drawing but I think I'm still getting better, its just so slow.
Sometimes I reread my posts from years ago just for the nostalgia trip, I was so determined, I had such a fire and drive for it.

When I started I used to read sketchbook threads on some now-long-dead site called ConceptArt.Org. I always skipped from their very first noobie sketch pages to the latest ones 4-5 years later, it just made improvement seem so real and the dream so possible. I just saw their work in a bubble as it magically improved, I never saw that those guys all had lives outside it and that things for them probably changed over time.

My degree is going to get me a well paying job with enough spare time to pursue this. I'm not going to worry about the prestige of it, med is suicide and even 16yearold me knew that, he just didn't know how terrible optometry would be LUL.

I guess the main thing is that I'm just lost. I love drawing, especially painting but I don't know if I want it to be something I'd want to get paid for. I'll reread this thread again to find out.