Poetry's drawings and stuff

i should be studying for finals

danika is 2nd best maple-fu


unfinished redline i never posted


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some realtalk tiem

if you're browsing this thead youll notice in maybe page2-3 or something i mention optometry school or medicine school

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i made a mistake

i shouldve done medicine, i had the marks for it, i wouldve gone interstate

i wouldve had f U n

i would've graduated and not have become a refraction drone, a machine for big coporations to sell glasses with

i wouldve been fuccccccccckiiiiiiiiing fulfilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeed

i didnt want it at the time becuase of the 'stress'
because i didnt want to ever say anything 'bad' to a patient

thats fuuuucking duumb

im fuuuucking dumb

i wanted the free time of drawing. optom was so easy to get into for me so i thought itd be easy to study but obviously nothing in univerisity is ever easy

iii wasted my time on overwatch


sooo much f'ucking time. hundreds of hours thats so stupid

thats hundreds of paintings aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and now its either graduate at 22 as an optometrist and have an /ok/ life but possibly hate my job and deal with feelings of inadequacy for the rest of my life

or graduate at 26 as a med student (at best) and get sh'it on for years and hate my job possibly for the rest of my life


whaaaaat the fuccccccck happened to my plansssss



the extra depressing reality is that one day. im never going to post in this thread again, and god-forbid a database wipe at this rate itll just exist as an archive of someones dreams being crushed/derailed

bruh. b r U H