2015-07-23, 03:30 AM
So I'm currently in the midst of planning a "glamping" trip with some friends to Lake Perris for this weekend. The weather looks perfect. More importantly, there's a girl there that I'm chasing. We actually went to Disneyland last weekend for a date and it went perfectly despite the rain!
I feel kind of dumb trying to start another LDR (San Diego to LA not actually that far...) after the last one crashed and burned so badly, but I really do like this girl and we've been texting almost daily for the last 2 weeks or so. She's pretty, intelligent, and just plain fun to be around. She even gets my flirty wordplay which is surprisingly difficult for many women lol. Unlike my last ex, she's got her life really well put together and is starting optometry school in the fall which actually puts her slightly farther away but with less traffic.
I know I really shouldn't let past problems hold me back, but I can't help but know that the distance really contributed to my last break up. It took me about a year to really get over her and I don't want to go through that again. It's not a fair comparison since this is a completely different girl, but the doubt is definitely there.
Still I can't help but smile when I talk to or even text her. I'm going to follow through and see where things go. It's dumb and damnably inconvenient but I really can't help myself.
Things are also shaping up pretty well with the new job. I'm not making as much progress as I'd hoped on my 2 projects, but both are more embedded systems related so a lot of it has been picking up new skills that I didn't learn anything about in college. Not really a surprise, but it can lead to some frustrating basic mistakes like mildly electrocuting myself the other day. It also looks like I may be doing some travel for work on the system I did data analysis for when I was an intern. The first trip is only a week and not too far away, but there was talk about going to DC or LV
It's going to be all work I'm sure but still very exciting and hopefully means they think I'm up to the task!
Meanwhile my mother's health hasn't been too great lately, but today was a good day. I've really been trying to do more to help out around the house, but there's not a lot I can do to directly help her with the pain and side effects from the medication. It's really tough knowing she's constantly in pain and it's really not going to change as long as she stays on the medication which could be years. I'm starting to doubt if I should move out like I planned at the end of August, especially with my brother and sister going back to school. I really want to get out so I won't have to see her explosions of anger or depression (not to mention resume my adult lifestyle), but I'm not sure my little brother and dad can handle everything by themselves.
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I feel kind of dumb trying to start another LDR (San Diego to LA not actually that far...) after the last one crashed and burned so badly, but I really do like this girl and we've been texting almost daily for the last 2 weeks or so. She's pretty, intelligent, and just plain fun to be around. She even gets my flirty wordplay which is surprisingly difficult for many women lol. Unlike my last ex, she's got her life really well put together and is starting optometry school in the fall which actually puts her slightly farther away but with less traffic.
I know I really shouldn't let past problems hold me back, but I can't help but know that the distance really contributed to my last break up. It took me about a year to really get over her and I don't want to go through that again. It's not a fair comparison since this is a completely different girl, but the doubt is definitely there.
Still I can't help but smile when I talk to or even text her. I'm going to follow through and see where things go. It's dumb and damnably inconvenient but I really can't help myself.
Things are also shaping up pretty well with the new job. I'm not making as much progress as I'd hoped on my 2 projects, but both are more embedded systems related so a lot of it has been picking up new skills that I didn't learn anything about in college. Not really a surprise, but it can lead to some frustrating basic mistakes like mildly electrocuting myself the other day. It also looks like I may be doing some travel for work on the system I did data analysis for when I was an intern. The first trip is only a week and not too far away, but there was talk about going to DC or LV
It's going to be all work I'm sure but still very exciting and hopefully means they think I'm up to the task!Meanwhile my mother's health hasn't been too great lately, but today was a good day. I've really been trying to do more to help out around the house, but there's not a lot I can do to directly help her with the pain and side effects from the medication. It's really tough knowing she's constantly in pain and it's really not going to change as long as she stays on the medication which could be years. I'm starting to doubt if I should move out like I planned at the end of August, especially with my brother and sister going back to school. I really want to get out so I won't have to see her explosions of anger or depression (not to mention resume my adult lifestyle), but I'm not sure my little brother and dad can handle everything by themselves.
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