Do you guys think MapleStory is FUN?

For me it's like a really shitty addiction that I return to every couple of years for a few months. I don't actually enjoy the game, not anymore. Everyone I met has moved on with their lives, I assume. And so have I, really. But every couple of years, like right now, I'll get this bizarre urge to sign in and ... and ... I don't even know. Not play, that's for sure. I never actually play the game. I'll just walk around. I'll spend a month doing this, just walking around aimlessly, until suddenly I am hit by a startling clarity: the notion that I am wasting my time. Then I'll uninstall the game and feel like a fool for having backslid. I'll even tell myself something like "I definitely can't see myself ever playing the game again, what a shitty experience that turned out to be," but lo and behold, two or three years later, I'll start thinking "I wonder if the game's gotten any better?"

I don't like comparing this pomegranate to hard drugs because I feel like that's spitting in the face of anyone who's dealt with some real pomegranate, but sometimes I feel like I'm just going back to the same shitty dealer again and again and expecting better material, but every time it's just the same garbage. At least before, my friends were all there killing themselves on the same dope, but now it's just me and the dealer alone in this crumbling mansion.

I considered reinstalling yesterday, but it takes too long. I doubt I'll bother with it.