How was your day?

A horrible friend wouldn't even feel bad about this and abandon friends in need. Don't blame yourself for what she did of her free will because it's already done, do what you can to support her now.

Thanks, this part helped and yeah I know it's already been done.

I didn't mention it but she went out to a friend's, got drunk, and cried herself to sleep there because she is currently going through a breakup with our mutual friend and is desperate. All the night before her first final exam. I was worried sick she was going to vomit in her sleep or something.

If I knew beforehand she was going to do that, I would have at least liked to know because I would have gladly logged out mid-run.

It's painful to watch because she has all the thoughts I had when I was going through a breakup with our mutual friend, and I warn her not to act them out because it led me down a very bad road with my ex. I confided in her during so she knows all this too.

OT: Cried myself to sleep thinking I'll feel better. Out of desperation, I almost considered breaking my silence with my ex to beg him to talk some sense into my friend but I didn't.

Still feel like pomegranate, physically and emotionally. I could barely sleep. Now waiting on my friend to message me back. Talking to her now. She sounds better, which makes me feel better. Still gonna stay around her though