2013-05-05, 01:24 PM
I'm not too certain that things will, in fact, change in the next two weeks. Because, honestly, he could change his mind, but I could also change my mind. I'm still preparing for it to be a breakup. I don't want to do sooner than the two weeks though, because tests. I want to give him that courtesy, at least. He's at least acknowledged that it COULD be his tests, and that's more than I had the first day we sat down and talked.
Also, I'm not going to lie; I wasn't going to initiate any texting, and I honestly was expecting to not hear from him for a few days. Last night I went to sleep relatively early, at 10:30. At 12:45 I woke up to my phone buzzing saying I had a text. When I looked, I had 4 texts. All from him. One at 11, "Hey". One at 11:30, "Oh, maybe you already went to bed then." One at 12, "Good night, sleep well." And one at 12:45, "Goodnight :,(".
Now, tired Kevin makes poor decisions from time to time. I ended up texting him back, just saying "Oh, I passed out about 2 hours ago...sorry." "Oh, I didn't mean to wake you up, sorry." "You're fine, I swear. I just didn't want you to think I was ignoring you. That's the last thing I want after today." "Okay..I really am sorry to have woken you." "Can sleepy Kevin ask you a question that just popped into his head?" "Sure." "Earlier today, it was essentially mentioned that we had communication issues. Then, later it was suggested that we have little to no communication throughout these next two weeks. If there's a communication issue, I feel like we should communicate a little more than not at all. I don't know if you would agree with that or not." "Yeah, I do.." And that's how that conversation went....
I'm trying to figure out what that could possibly all mean. I wasn't expecting to hear from him for days. But 4 texts all in the first night? I don't know what to think.
Also, I'm not going to lie; I wasn't going to initiate any texting, and I honestly was expecting to not hear from him for a few days. Last night I went to sleep relatively early, at 10:30. At 12:45 I woke up to my phone buzzing saying I had a text. When I looked, I had 4 texts. All from him. One at 11, "Hey". One at 11:30, "Oh, maybe you already went to bed then." One at 12, "Good night, sleep well." And one at 12:45, "Goodnight :,(".
Now, tired Kevin makes poor decisions from time to time. I ended up texting him back, just saying "Oh, I passed out about 2 hours ago...sorry." "Oh, I didn't mean to wake you up, sorry." "You're fine, I swear. I just didn't want you to think I was ignoring you. That's the last thing I want after today." "Okay..I really am sorry to have woken you." "Can sleepy Kevin ask you a question that just popped into his head?" "Sure." "Earlier today, it was essentially mentioned that we had communication issues. Then, later it was suggested that we have little to no communication throughout these next two weeks. If there's a communication issue, I feel like we should communicate a little more than not at all. I don't know if you would agree with that or not." "Yeah, I do.." And that's how that conversation went....
I'm trying to figure out what that could possibly all mean. I wasn't expecting to hear from him for days. But 4 texts all in the first night? I don't know what to think.