How was your day?

Feeling meh.
I feel like I'm not adjusting to University life well enough. I'm slacking on work majorly, I have no motivation, and I feel utterly left behind.

And in my personal life.. having all these feelings for someone is great, but now that he's actually showing something akin to interest, i'm suddenly plagued by doubts and fears. Am I just imagining that he's interested? Am I wrong yet again? Oh, and he still has a boyfriend. I can't stress that part enough. I lost before I even began.

Which brings me back to work. My feelings and the inevitable thinking and worrying is making me lose focus, giving me a sort of "writers block". The further things go in both university and my personal life, the deeper i'm sinking.
Thankfully, next week is a full week of no lectures or anything, meaning if I really work hard i'll be able to catch up on all the work I've missed and turn things around. Plus I won't be seeing him for about 10+ days or something because he's going back to Sweden. But until then i'm just falling apart and I feel like a failure. I'm in a massive slump right now..