The Thread of More True Honesty.

Whatever, Asians. I ain't even mad.

Asians will be Asians. The love is everlasting.

I feel like a loser right now. :[

I am a Asian teenager who plays girl characters on maplestory; because of my past experiance in love. I barely go outside. I stay home most of the time trying to study. I like sad/depressed songs. I am on the top of my grade however I lack a lot of social experiance (due to the fact that I am an immigrant) In summary I am just another kid who doesn't want to grow up.

My girlfriend called me three days before i was supposed to fly to San Diego to visit her to tell me that she cheated on me, and that she thought we should break up. -__-
That was the first girl I had actually had a committed relationship with. Before her, I just kinda did the "college hook-up thing" with a bunch of girls, but i would never look for a relationship because I get tired of people extremely easily and I value my time alone almost more than my time with other people. I was put on academic suspension this year because I've had a chronic laziness problem since the 5th grade. Starting then, I just ignore assignments, classes, etc. I made it to a great university though, with great test scores, but now, my senior year, I have to work my way through a couple semesters at a community college while the rest of my friends party it up and enjoy their senior year. -________-
I often ignore people because I would rather not speak to them or see them or move from whatever Im doing.
Even though I love being alone, when Im with people I dont want to leave them, I have more friends than i count, and I easily mesh with lots of different people, but ive never had a true best friend.
Im un-motivated, and I dont know how to stop it.

I really want summer to last more than 12 days.

I need to start biking more.

I am a hypochondriac.

I'm scared of college.

I waaaaay overthink things sometimes.

also I think I have trouble saying I love you.

I realize that I really do not have a lot in common with the people around me, especially friends, I feel like it's what is causing us to drift apart...

...and it is not bothering me at all...

My mind is weak. I need to learn how to stop caring.

I have a dakimakura that I leave leaning against the wall next to my bed (My bed is near a wall with a window, and depending on the season either the wall is really hot or really cold). It takes up the heat or the cold pretty well, so I leave it there since it keeps the temperature around my bed nice. When I sleep I sleep in a position that's usually facing away from it, but oddly enough even though I sleep facing away from it, 6/7 days I'll wake up and find that I'm hugging it. It is pretty comfy though.

Blah. I'm about to enter into a relationship with someone 10 years my senior in a country where things like this are frowned upon even more than usual.

Exciting! But scary.

Also, I like this thread.

I'm far more adult than the other papayas in my class.
By seamiles.
They laught when someone says "Sex". And they don't even understand the objectional understanding of an unexisting item. Wich would be that it's not explainable. Because it doesn't exist.

Oh yeah, I'm also outta shape.

I'm scared of college.

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Don't know the first thing about programming, starting programming course on the 15th.

Gonna run at this wall headfirst.

I've been in a bit of a slump for the past 2 weeks now and nothing I do seems to cheer me up, even talking to my friends and my ex. Used to cheer me up, but now it doesn't. Something's wrong with me, and I don't know what.

However, I caught myself dancing just awhile ago, and...I feel happier. Best feeling I've felt in awhile.
It's strange...because I've always been so critical of my dancing and I'm a terrible dancer, so just the idea of me getting a step/count wrong gets to me.

I have the utmost confidence in myself that I will dominate my AP Government course.
Feels good knowing that I'm incredible at it so far and that the outcome will take me far into what I want to do.

I'm...unconfident in my soon to be roommate due to the fact I haven't met him and he doesn't have a Facebook...Lord I hope he's not crazy.

I might come off as a Homofagus on the forum/IRC/DFO but I'm not that flaming in real life. Yesterday/this morning I went to my first gay club and there are so many cute/hot Asian guys and they were dancing and i cant dance for pomegranate and I'm shy as pineapple and I wish I was more open. I also wish I looked kind of better so I could get the courage to walk up to them.
To go with this feeling; 2ne1 - Ugly
[video=youtube;NGe0hHvAGkc]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGe0hHvAGkc[/video]

Haven't left the house in nearly a month, starting to go to my head a little bit. :3