Marksman Bryan Wrote:I've lost my appetite. My enthusiasm. I don't think I've really been happy in two weeks.

Things with her hit rock bottom today. Although I think now I've learned from all the mistakes I've made and have started to improve a little. I can tell there's still a chance. I just can't make any more mistakes.

I normally hate when people post depressing crap but I guess now I understand. I feel so horrible I've stopped caring about pretty much everything, including what people think of me.

I've tried doing things to distract me. I was up from 7-3 outside in this goddam heat, then I went to a neighbors party. I had my first full (mixed?) alcoholic drink. I don't even care about my health anymore and I hate feeling like this. The distractions barely did anything.

Just a few more days and I think I'll know for sure whether I should give up with her.
I had so many plans for this summer.. I was so happy and I had the motivation to do anything. Now it's impossible to go a full day without crying like a baby.

Sorry for being such a downer, southperry. I just needed to write down how I feel. I tried a diary but that didn't really help

icephoenix21 Wrote:So since I got accepted into VIU, I was able to drop the summer ceramics class I had intended to take at the local community college here (since VIU doesn't require tons of fine art bullpomegranate classes, it's completely unnecessary).

I'll be heading down to the office on Monday to get my refund, and I've used said money to book a flight to see the boyfriend before he comes here.
So I'll be in Victoria for a month and a half 8) yay

Sn1perJohnE Wrote:Ceramics is so much fun though D:

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Marksman Bryan Wrote:Officially since December and unofficially since August~September ish.
I didn't go around telling people 'cause I saw it as a personal thing I didn't need to broadcast (which apparently she didn't like).

Talked with a friend and I'm feeling kind of better. Not really though since I can't sleep. I guess I'm starting to be ok with it.

Just sucks not having anyone to talk to about personal stuff now. She was the only one that ever cared or listened. She was the only one I felt comfortable with. And to make things worse someone who I thought was a friend has "been there when I wasn't" and now she has feelings for him. When I expressed my concerns (jealousy) a few months ago she assured me he would never be a problem.

I'm just venting at this point. idk it's weird so many emotions ugh I'll just stay single for the rest of my life

Razmos Wrote:I am also considering the possibility of studying in America. I would absolutely love to do it, but i'm finding the process confusing and I'm unsure on the expenses.

Sardines Wrote:Welcome to America, we can educate you very well on confusion and expenses. Don't worry, they are both taught in the same course.

Mazz Wrote:It's 2am and I'm laying in bed and I've decided that I really want a banjo

I've been pretty down the past few days... Girl friend (note not girlfriend) is back home for the summer and we've been hanging out and stuff but I can't get over the fact that I like her way more than she likes me.
Also watched iron man (first one, 7/10, start was painful to watch and I kind of wanted the bad guy to win because Robert Downey jr is irritating)

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Mandalay Wrote:My dog just died about an hour ago and I'm really gonna miss her especially when I wake up tomorrow. She's my first pet since my childhood. She passed away in my father's arms in the car on the way to the clinic.

I know she had health problems (congestive heart failure) but I didn't think today would be the day because I was playing with her fine this morning. My mother even took pictures of her this morning. She was so lively even at the age of 12.

I didn't even get to say goodbye to her when she was living. The last thing I did to her was shout in her ear to please not die. I only got to kiss her goodbye in that one room before you give the body to the clinic for cremation.


I miss my dog already. I'd do anything to see her living again. Bye Cutie, I love you a lot

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I'd like to believe that she went peacefully.

Fiel Wrote:Decided I'm going to help people. There are about 15 marines in Afghanistan that want Optimum Nutrition whey and BCAAs. I'm going to help 'em out and include a letter. This is going to be fun!